What it means to come home
I’ve spent the majority of my adulthood in states no one in my California family had ever seen, Oklahoma and Tennessee. I wouldn’t change a thing; the experiences I had and the people I met and love are gifts that have changed me forever. When we love people, we feel drawn to them, incomplete without them. We can feel the same way about places, and for me, the place that has pulled on my heart the hardest and the longest is Berkeley, CA, which I left at age 24 when I headed to Oklahoma.
I am a rare breed of Californian, a 4th generation native on my mother’s side. Not just of California, but of Berkeley. Although I was born in Carmel, CA because of my father’s Army location, Berkeley is the first place I really lived, in married student housing for the University of California, Berkeley.
Records indicate that my great-great-grandfather Kyran Connors immigrated to Berkeley from Ireland in 1849, and got married in 1870 to Alice, who came there in 1852, and they had 8 children, including my great-grandpa, William, “Pa”. He married my great-grandma Della, or “Ma”, whose parents had also arrived early to Berkeley, in 1870 and 1865. They had 5 children, including my beloved Grams and my favorite uncle Merv.
Grams met my Gramps, they had my mom, and then came me. Generations of Berkeley love.
My Gramps and his side of the family are Italian. My great-grandfather Giuseppe, later Joseph, came to America in 1905, and went to Montana, where he met my Nana, Amelia, who was born in Montana after her parents came over around 1870. They had Gramps, and ended up in Berkeley around 1920. They settled in West Berkeley, on a little piece of land that contains two tiny bungalows that share a driveway and garage, one built in 1921, the other in 1925. These two houses, and the precious memories they contain, are my heart. My mother was raised in the 1921 house, and her grandmother lived next door. When I came along, my grandparents were in one, my Nana in the other, and my uncle Merv was in the Irish family home about 4 blocks away. And next month, I am moving into the 1925 house, my great-grandparents’ home. And my neighbors will be my brother and sister-in-law. My brother has lived in the 1921 house for about a decade now. HOW COOL IS THAT????? I am pretty much beside myself, not gonna lie.
I have spent a colossal amount of time on this property, especially as a child. I was blessed with the gift of adoring grandparents who shaped who I am. I was my Gramps’ shadow, and lived in my Grams’ lap. I learned how to ride a bike there, how to tie my shoes there, and how to properly salt a fresh tomato and pick a carrot. My Gramps’ garden was glorious, and I cannot wait to bring it back to life. There is a giant, ancient lemon tree in the back yard, and I can’t wait to make my first lemonade. I’ll invite you over! We’ll add vodka!
My Nana died when I was 8 or 9, and I honestly don’t think I’ve been in that house since. Maybe once. There have been many wonderful tenants over the years while the other house kept family inside. But now both houses will have family in them again, and honestly, I can’t imagine belonging anywhere more. It’s old and won’t be like living in this fancy condo in the burbs, but I couldn’t care less about that. I get to be where 3 generations of my wonderful family has lived and loved, made pasta, grew food, washed cars, and laughed. I get to be in a city I love. I am a very, VERY lucky Berkeley kid, and my heart just may explode. Salute!