Look back to move forward
I haven't lived full-time in the homeland for 22 years. That is crazy to me, seems unreal. I was 24 when I left, so I have almost been away as long as I was there. I left for very good reasons, and they still exist - I know, because I visit regularly. Traffic, insane, soul-sucking traffic, inescapable, 24-7 traffic would be reason numero uno. I choose not to live my life in my car, no matter how much I like said car. The cost of living is big ol' reason number two. Did a search on their Zillow recently for shits and giggles of the same quality of abode I have here, and yeah. About 4 times as much to rent. But I don't think my pay for comparable work would be 4 times as much, sooooo......why? Unless you are really rich out there, it's gonna be a struggle. But I am at a point in my life when I know that I am destined to go back, and go back for good. It won't happen for a few years, but yeah. It's gonna happen. I just keep getting older, and so does my family, and I want us to get old together. And they ain't gonna move, obviously. Leaving my current home, this amazing city full of amazing people that has quickly become a great love of my life, will be more than difficult to do. They may not be blood, but I have family here. Lots of it. That being said, I shall have to fortify myself with all of the reasons I would love to be out there again, so I don't obsessively think about traffic and living accommodations like a nervous, feral cat anymore, and don't cry rivers and oceans over the prospect of leaving the 901 and all of the gifts it has given me.
It's a straight-up gorgeous place to be. Everywhere you turn, there is natural beauty to see and explore. And good weather to go along with it. I like fog, I like a chilly summer, I like sun that doesn't hurt as much. Humidity makes me an angry, sweaty person, and I hate it. I hate the bugs that come with humidity, too. I cannot wait for it to be a sweaty memory. Okay that's a good one. What else......OOOO!
SPORTSBALL! Yeah, probably won't be going to any Raiders games after the next couple years, but still....so much sportsball in such a small geographic area! Any and all of it! I look forward to being a season ticket holder for the A's again and getting my fix whenever I want it. I can't even watch my teams on TV most of the time right now, and that makes me sad. Ohhh, and YEAH!
I MISS SKIING SO MUCH! Yeah, okay, my old knees don't, BUT I DOOOOO!!! I can't wait to own skis again, and have to go buy chains for my car, and road trips to Tahoe on the weekends, and maybe even finally learning to snowboard with my brothers. WHEEEEEEEEEE!!!
Exercise never feels like a chore when you have a Pacific Ocean beach to do it on. Or a lakeside path. Or a bay-side path. Or anywhere near that intoxicating salt water smell that makes my guts and soul so happy. And don't get me started on the wonderful treats contained within that water. Well, OKAY, if you insist.
I love all seafood, but really, I'm all about crab crab crabby crabby crab. Put it in my mouth! And avocados. Cheap, delicious avocados. And the produce. And the bread omg droooooool. See's Candy! Good pizza everywhere. Real Mexican food, and most importantly, thousands and thousands of Asians making thousands and thousands of treats for my eats! YAY!
There is so much more, but I'm already feeling bolstered, and not thinking about traffic. Much. And the most important reason making me want to go back - my family and my BFF of almost 35 years. My entire family. They are there and I'm not. I'm not going to post a picture of any of them for their sake, but trust me, they're cute. And I miss them so much I get achy sometimes. What better reason could there be?